よこそう！ここはアルゼンの日記です。
From: A cardboard box, Singapore
About me: Anxiously Restoring Zany ENtertainment. Arzen has experience sitting on a psychiatrist's couch, saying goodbye to $100 every hour. Epicurean by nature, practises gluttony and sloth religiously. Other sins are committed in moderation(or so I claim). Has a twisted sense of humour because I find hardcore yaoi hilarious.
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Sunday, February 18, 2007,3:48 PM
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Friday, January 26, 2007,11:43 PM
...マ,マジスか？！俺は...SEME?!
I was exploring some oebbs links after relieving the itch in my left hand.
One of them is a site that ranks the top 100 (a million?)personality analysis sites.
So I went ahead with the TOP winner of the pack, a personality analysis on one's sexual character.
無邪気攻めぇぇぇ？？！！
What the hell???
An innocent/ingenuous/trusting (according to Collins Eng-Jap Dictionary) active??!!
The following analysis, however, does say something about me which I... have no comments on.
'...You're the type whose love relationships can get awkward and bungled up.' [How can I screw one up when I don't have one in the 1st place?]
'...Although you appear to forgive the person and forget the incident, once you're alone, you tend to think hard about the incident.' [Kill,kill,kill,kill,kill,kill,kill- King Lear, Shakespeare]
'...Because you desire happiness/ pleasure, you are a person with motives and a lot of scheming.' [*evil glint*]
'...With a refreshing smile and sweet tone of voice, you can capture the heart of your partner. Once caught, he/she cannot escape.' [HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!My Arse!*sweet voice*]
And finally...
Khow Wee Tingさんにもうすぐ出来るのは...妹です！
(The person whom KWT is able to ’do’ soon is... （her）younger sister!)
I'm straight and I'm not into paedophilic incest. The furthest I could probably go is sadomasochism, thank you very much.
Here's a melting candle to the Top ranked personality analysis site.
One of them is a site that ranks the top 100 (a million?)personality analysis sites.
So I went ahead with the TOP winner of the pack, a personality analysis on one's sexual character.
無邪気攻めぇぇぇ？？！！What the hell???
An innocent/ingenuous/trusting (according to Collins Eng-Jap Dictionary) active??!!
The following analysis, however, does say something about me which I... have no comments on.
'...You're the type whose love relationships can get awkward and bungled up.' [How can I screw one up when I don't have one in the 1st place?]
'...Although you appear to forgive the person and forget the incident, once you're alone, you tend to think hard about the incident.' [Kill,kill,kill,kill,kill,kill,kill- King Lear, Shakespeare]
'...Because you desire happiness/ pleasure, you are a person with motives and a lot of scheming.' [*evil glint*]
'...With a refreshing smile and sweet tone of voice, you can capture the heart of your partner. Once caught, he/she cannot escape.' [HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!My Arse!*sweet voice*]
And finally...
Khow Wee Tingさんにもうすぐ出来るのは...妹です！
(The person whom KWT is able to ’do’ soon is... （her）younger sister!)
I'm straight and I'm not into paedophilic incest. The furthest I could probably go is sadomasochism, thank you very much.
Here's a melting candle to the Top ranked personality analysis site.
Monday, January 22, 2007,11:35 PM
Shine!
Dance Iori Dance!
There's a cool flash site where you can draw a character and the flash program will make it shake its booty. Many thanks to my KL cousin.
*Too tired to blog about my work even though it's worth blogging about... Laters yea..?
Monday, January 08, 2007,10:57 PM
Not that feeling again...F**king Pissed
Say thy prayers...
SHIT!
I'm feeling all that angst which I thought should have dissolved with age.
It began when my dad talked about banking jobs in the morning.
I've been seething and swimming in a huge range of emotions for the whole day and...
*peers at clock" it's 1 hour before midnight and I'm still feeling the inflammatory desire to bash something.
On the train my heart was pounding and I thought: Maybe I should just get a heart attack and die right here. No point in living as myself. My worth is merely on how much I can earn.
SHIT!
I'm feeling all that angst which I thought should have dissolved with age.
It began when my dad talked about banking jobs in the morning.
I've been seething and swimming in a huge range of emotions for the whole day and...
*peers at clock" it's 1 hour before midnight and I'm still feeling the inflammatory desire to bash something.
On the train my heart was pounding and I thought: Maybe I should just get a heart attack and die right here. No point in living as myself. My worth is merely on how much I can earn.
I'm not going to be a f**king banker! Can he stop his damn fantasy?!! I'm not my brilliant doctor cousin or his brother. I don't have the drive nor passion to scale the corporate ladder or get a $9000/mth job.
If I'm pissed enough I could just pack my bags, get a plane ticket to Japan, Europe wherever and leave without notice.
I was that pissed off and emotionally wacked.
This reminds me of Louisa from Charles Dickens' 'Hard Times'.
She began to dissolve inside as she gave in to her fact-worshipping academic father.
Rich in brains and lived up to his expectations, but poor in the heart.
She gave herself to Mr Bounderby, a middle-class rich old man who dumps her in the end.
Of course I may entertain such destructive thoughts when I get ultra pissed but that is to vent my angst with imagination. (What would be more effective is a punching bag for me to kick and pound into rags.)
There are 'Louisa's out there who do screw up their lives.
Recently I met up with my ol' JC tutor who's planning a sex ed talk.(Bwahahahaha!!!)
He revealed that there's a girl in the Gifted programme, all smart and seemingly streetwise...
yet she let herself get laid by a jerk until she got pregnant. Just because she needed love and for affirming her self-worth.
The jerk got on with his life happily while the girl was left an emotional wreck who had problems even in making a passing grade.
*kicks table*
I was that pissed off and emotionally wacked.
This reminds me of Louisa from Charles Dickens' 'Hard Times'.
She began to dissolve inside as she gave in to her fact-worshipping academic father.
Rich in brains and lived up to his expectations, but poor in the heart.
She gave herself to Mr Bounderby, a middle-class rich old man who dumps her in the end.
Of course I may entertain such destructive thoughts when I get ultra pissed but that is to vent my angst with imagination. (What would be more effective is a punching bag for me to kick and pound into rags.)
There are 'Louisa's out there who do screw up their lives.
Recently I met up with my ol' JC tutor who's planning a sex ed talk.(Bwahahahaha!!!)
He revealed that there's a girl in the Gifted programme, all smart and seemingly streetwise...
yet she let herself get laid by a jerk until she got pregnant. Just because she needed love and for affirming her self-worth.
The jerk got on with his life happily while the girl was left an emotional wreck who had problems even in making a passing grade.
*kicks table*
Monday, January 01, 2007,5:10 PM
It's 2007!
HAPPY NEW YEAR~!!!Original characters that don't look original to welcome the year 2007.
After finishing this picture about a quarter to one, I had a big surprise.
Palmyra san posted a comment and a new year greeting on my oebbs, a few mins shy after midnight!
(^w^) Ureshiii~
I'm so glad tis 'auld acquaintance' has not forgotten. And it's grand to see a message from Palmyra after so long.
I don't actively celebrate the new year because
1) I don't like to drown in a sea of people. Gaah! Especially when they pound your feet flat in the mosh pit and everyone's sweat mingles with everyone's sweat.
2)Will my presence make a difference in such an event? Yes. The retailers and SMRT can hear an extra ka-ching!
3)Lazyyyyy... ... zzzz
I do remember and think of the people and events that have happened though. Reminiscing those little and big things like snorting Pepsi out of my nose when I was in secondary school when YY said something funny and bitchy. Or how lilac always comforted me when I threw tantrums in junior college. Haha, I'm not going to forget 1wRong's "Stop, stop my back's going to break!" when I gave her a dinosaur-hug.
I still think friends are made by chance and that makes them so precious and so special.
I admit I'm pretty spoilt and never bothered to send a card nor reply sms.
*Bonk!*
Ouch. Ok, I deserved that.
These friends are the treasures in my heart because to make a friend out of a stranger is itself a miracle of chance.
So now, what did I do on new year's eve...
As usual...
I did not go out.
I stayed home to rest after the Chinese herbal detox. (The physician didn't warn me!!!)
7 times to the toilet will result in anal soreness. (...Retribution for finding the uke's plight funny)
And 7 times to the toilet is a very exhausting activity to indulge on new year's eve.
And slept.
Read some scandal-laden book. (The Monk- it's classic literature man!)
Surfed some internet.
And slept. Again.
Friday, December 29, 2006,10:43 PM
Arzen 坏了.(My 1st BL game in KL...and I missed the S'pore Flood!)
Atchoo-!
This blog has become quite dusty. Cough cough.
Aha! I returned to Singapore the day after Xmas. This trip to KL has been quite a learning experience.
I learned to play...
MY 1ST BL GAME.
And my last. (I hope...)
It's called "俺の下であがけ" , made by Alice Blue a decade ago.
Featuring voice actors Midorikawa and Morikawa. (according to my cousin, they have a huge discography and portfolio of ahem ahem sound projects)
The objective in this game is to help the main character, 黒崎壱哉, the chairman of Kurosaki Finance, to cause his 3 male targets to incur a huge debt that they cannot repay in time. Once the deadline's over, the male targets will have to give themselves to him as collateral. The fun part is the main character has cards that engineer various unfortunate events in order to cause their debt to balloon at various levels.
For my cousin's pleasure...
Kaimono level 4 (Special Card)
The victim is swindled into buying a worthless object. At level 4, it's an abstract piece of ugly crap. At level 3, it is a magical urn with an abstract carving of an ugly pig. At levels 1 & 2, it's english books and blankets.
This blog has become quite dusty. Cough cough.
Aha! I returned to Singapore the day after Xmas. This trip to KL has been quite a learning experience.
I learned to play...
MY 1ST BL GAME.
And my last. (I hope...)
It's called "俺の下であがけ" , made by Alice Blue a decade ago.
Featuring voice actors Midorikawa and Morikawa. (according to my cousin, they have a huge discography and portfolio of ahem ahem sound projects)
The objective in this game is to help the main character, 黒崎壱哉, the chairman of Kurosaki Finance, to cause his 3 male targets to incur a huge debt that they cannot repay in time. Once the deadline's over, the male targets will have to give themselves to him as collateral. The fun part is the main character has cards that engineer various unfortunate events in order to cause their debt to balloon at various levels.
For my cousin's pleasure...
Kaimono level 4 (Special Card)
The victim is swindled into buying a worthless object. At level 4, it's an abstract piece of ugly crap. At level 3, it is a magical urn with an abstract carving of an ugly pig. At levels 1 & 2, it's english books and blankets.
Kaimono level 3 (Kaimono card)
I love the part when the voice actor Midorikawa goes ぺらぺら (perapera: Japanese vers. of blah blah?!)as 壱哉 in disguise at levels 3 and 4.
There's a whole lot of other weird and funny stuff in the game like the strange hallucinations/ dreams the main character gets after consuming a psychedelic mushroom, きのこ.
What other weird crap did I learn...hmm...
The word 鬼畜. I thought it meant an 'animal ghost' but the real meaning's much worse. Well, I can't give a specific explanation although my cousin showed me the picture of 壱哉 having done very bad things to his male target as an example...
(0A0)
We also learnt where 'Yaranai ka' and 'ii otoko' comes from.
This famous meme (yes, it has become an icon!) was ripped from the pages of 'くそみそテクニック'(kusomiso technique) by 山川純一, affectionately known as Yamajun.
http://uraden.hp.infoseek.co.jp/kusomiso.html
How famous? Netizens in Japan, China and Taiwan love to use the 'ii otoko' facial expression for parody.
壊されちゃった。
我已经坏了。